We are far too young and clever
And things won't ever change.
05 November 2004
10:50 p.m.
Not much is new with me. Been trying to throw up less (like, every other day instead of twice a day) and been SIing more. I've got a couple nasty salt and ice burns on my arm and leg. I popped the big gross blisters. I've got antibiotic ointment on them, I'll be totally fucked if they get infected, what with me not having insurance.
I saw a wanted ad for a neat temp job I might apply for. No, I will apply for it. I need to do something. It's $13 an hour, which is plenty for me. I'm really in search of experience, not money right now. The job lasts 3-6 months, it's lab tech work in a histology lab. The drive would be pretty far from my house, so I might temporarily move over to my aunt's and stay in her spare bedroom. That would probably be kind of tense, since she found this diary a few years ago so she knows about my bulimia and SI. It would probably be ok, though. The other thing about the job is that it's 3rd shift, 3am to 11:30am. I don't think I'd mind that, I'm really much more of a night person. I guess what I'd probably do is go do bed when I got home from work, and get up in the evening. I also need to make a resume (why didn't I go to all those resume workshops in college???) What a pain in the ass. I'll let you know how it goes.
I'm continuing to slowly lose weight. I can't really work out now, since I have to keep the injuries on my arms and legs covered. I guess I could just walk around the lake by my neighborhood in long sleeves/pants. Maybe I'll start doing that. A little activity is better than nothing.
I'm thinking about tapering the Prozac down and getting off it. I've got enough for a couple months, and then I won't be able to afford it anymore. I don't think it's make much of a difference in my bulimia or emotions,and I'm pretty sure it's why I feel so tired all the time.
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