We are far too young and clever
And things won't ever change.
01 October 2004
1:03 a.m.
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate my body. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate it. Why can't I have any willpower? Why am I so weak? Huge binge today, fast food. Good purge, I guess, but it left me feeling like I was hit by a Mack truck. Then I ate too much dinner and dessert and just didn't have the heart to puke that too. I need to get back to the gym. Need to ride my bike or play tennis with my sister or just walk. My neck glands hurt. My teeth hurt from clenching my jaw all the time and my muscles are sore because I'm always tense. I have to forcibly relax my body every few minutes. It's worse lately; maybe a side effect of the Prozac? Maybe that's why I'm so tired all the time. If I could just lose 10 or 15 pounds my clothes would fit so much better.
I'll do better tomorrow. I have to.
I'm having such a craving for chewy SweetTarts. Isn't that odd.
I turned 23 on Monday. Yay for me, I am old.
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