We are far too young and clever
And things won't ever change.
29 September 2004
2:40 p.m.
Haven't been posting much, but really, there isn't much to post. Still just living at home, still jobless. It's cool, though; what can I say, I like being able to sleep 14 hours a day. And why shouldn't I? It's not like I have kids to support or anything. No one's even particularly on my back about being a lazy jobless blob. Except, in the back of my mind, me.
I've actually lost some weight. Down to 218, so I've lost about 10 pounds in the past few weeks. Haven't been exercising at all (my gym membership ended, I really need to get back) just not eating that much. Not 'hardcore restricting' or anything silly like that, a la my wannabe ana days. I basically try to eat one snack and one regular meal a day. It's not that hard and it seems to work. I was actually doing really well with not purging until the day before yesterday, and then twice tomorrow. It's a relapse, not a habit. I've grown weary of throwing up. Maybe it's the Prozac.
I don't really know how much the Prozac is doing. I concede that it's probably helped me stop throwing up. But sometimes I feel worse emotionally. It's like, before the Prozac, I had all these depressed feelings but they were all locked up. And the Prozac unlocked them, but hasn't fixed them. I don't feel bad all the time, though. I still have fun, go out with friends. It's ok.
So, that's enough for now.
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