We are far too young and clever
And things won't ever change.
06 February 2004
8:19 p.m.
I always dreaded this day, and now it's here. My 15 year old sister has some little 15 year old boyfriend, and I'm still single as hell. Ouch. Of course, my first reaction is, 'man, I should get drunk.' Not 'projectile vomit all over my laptop' drunk, but fairly drunk. But I don't think I will. Maybe just two drinks, til I don't give a damn anymore. Watch a movie and fall asleep. I am going to see if a friend wants to get trashed with me tomorrow, though. She's usually game. Although it turns out my sister's little boyfriend lives in a different town and they've just met like once. Apparently they talk online a lot.
Anyway. School sucks ass, but just in the usual way. The weather blows. I think I've put on a few pounds, and lost muscle. I NEED to get back to the gym, but it's so hard to drag myself there in this crappy weather. I'm trying to eat square meals instead of a lot of snacking. I binge every now and then, but I've only purged once or twice. To be honest, it's not any really willpower, just that purging makes my throat really sore and I'm usually just too lazy to do it.
Maybe I should start keeping my food journal again. Not calories, just what I eat. Ok, whatever. I'm going to go fix a drink.
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