We are far too young and clever
And things won't ever change.
31 October 2003
1:14 p.m.
Ok, so I last updated the 22nd. I've been pretty busy since then. Let's go through what I did, so I can feel like my life has purpose:
Thursday
- Went with my buddy to her dorm room to pick up some crap
- Went to the used book store, got The Phantom Tollbooth, Ender's Shadow, and two field guides, mammals and wildflowers
- Had a nice dinner with the family. I think I threw it up
Friday
- Went to the State Fair with previously mentioned buddy, SB. Saw World's Biggest Pig, Smallest Horse, ate fried things, rode unsafe rides operated by surly carnies. Good times
- Baked a cake with SB for our friends' party on Friday. Red velvet. We made it from scratch, and it was nasty, so luckily the dog ate it when we weren't looking. So we bought a box cake and made that
- Saw Kill Bill. It may not have had much of a plot, but it was still the heat
Saturday
- Party time. My goal was to drink until I didn't feel feelings anymore, and that was definitely accomplished. Twelve shots
Sunday
- Too hungover to drive three hours back to school. Sleep all day
Monday
- Get up at 6am, drive back to school. Miss my 8am class
- Make the 1pm class
- Sleep all day
Tuesday
- Skipped all my classes, slept all day
- B/p
- Study for my botany exam on Wednesday. Almost pull the all-nighter: stay up til 5:30am studying
Wednesday
- Wake up at 7am
- Class at 8am
- Study for two more hours
- Botany exam. I made it my bitch
- Entomology class
- Home to work on my Evolutionary Anthropology assignment
- Chemistry Club Demo Show rehersal from 6pm til 9pm
- Come home, go to bed. Plan to get up at 6am to write essay due Thursday. Haven't eaten all day, wasn't hungry
Thursday
- Woke up at 1am after two hours of sleep. What the fuck. Go ahead and write essay. Wasn't a masterpiece
- Eat corn and Skittles
- Watch TV and Se7en
- Fall back asleep at 6am
- Wake up at 8:30am, shower
- Entomology lab
- Medical Anthropology class
- Evolutionary Anthropology class
- Lunch. Grilled cheese sandwich, small taco salad, Rice Krispie treat
- Work on plant specimens in botany lab
- Chem Club Demo Show! I rocked that thing out, it was great
- Get some frozen yogurt
- Go to bed, sleep til 1pm Friday. I don't have class today, so it's cool
So there you go. A week in the life of me.
It's been kind of weird. I've been feeling ok about myself. I'll see myself in a mirror, or be folding a huge pair of jeans, and get that flash of anger and self-hatred. Then I just think, "You are what you are. Being miserable isn't going to change your weight. It takes time." And I calm down and go on. I am what I am. Those little flashes of calmness and clarity are nice. They're what I'm hoping drugs will do to me. I didn't get at chance to see my doc over Fall Break. Maybe Thanksgiving break, maybe Christmas. But sometime. I'm thinking I'll just ask for Celexa again. I didn't have any bad side effects, and I think it worked pretty well.
So today. Shower, go to the store with my friend SC, go back to her place for lasagna and movies and games. Come back to my place tonight, I hate sleeping on someone else's couch. This weekend. Study, do school work, prepare for GREs. Maybe see 28 Days Later at $1 theater. It's sad that I really have no social life to speak of, except for my one friend up here. Oh well, beating my self up about it isn't going to change anything.
I found out that a friend of mine is getting married this summer. How crazy and depressing. You know, between me and my two closest friends, SC and SB, we've had a total of two boyfriends in college, one mine and one SB's. I don't get that. I mean, I get why I don't have one, but they're fun and pretty and normal(ish). You'd think they'd find someone. Oh well.
Happy Halloween everyone.
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